Girl:
1. Who am i?
My name is Lucy Frost. I'm 17 years old and I live at home with my mum and dad. I'm an only child and I attend sixth form. Im doing 3 A-levels; English Lit, Drama and Politics. I was born in Herefordshire just outside Wales, however when I was 10 me and my family moved to Winchester in Hampshire. It was just before I moved to high school, so starting a new high school in a new area was daunting however I do a lot of drama so I'm a fairly confident person. I've been brought up to make an effort with making as many new friends as possible. I hope to go to university to study fashion and journalism. Image has always been an important thing to me and I'd love to go into the fashion industry as a writer or reviewer. My family would much rather me do something more conventional, but i'm not afraid to follow my heart rather than my head. I have a good group of girl friends at school, we do everything together, theres always a party or something to do at the weekend, which ensures there's always plenty to talk about within the group. Its hard being in a big friendship group because sometimes its difficult to know who tell really personal things to.
2. Where am i?
I live in a average sized, semi detached cottage on the outskirts of Winchester. I'm at home in my bedroom. I'm surrounded by all of my school work. I have loads of pictures of me and my friends stuck to the wall next to where I sit. There's magazines and catalogues stacked up high. I spend most of my time in my bedroom when i'm at home, so everything I need is here. I keep it tidy because mum always said "Tidy surroundings, tidy mind". I supposed I can be a bit of a perfectionist.
3.When is it?
It's 2012, Autumn time. Im in year 13 so I'm thinking about my exams that are coming up in January. Quite a stressful time. There seems to be a lot going on.
4.Where have I just come from?
I've just got home from the gym. Popped to the gym after school so i'm fairly tired. I had a 5 period day today and I need to go shopping later on because there's a party on Saturday and I need a new dress. I can do my school work when I get home tonight or in a free tomorrow.
5.What do I want?
I want people to like me. I want people to think i'm perfect.I guess I kind of wish they'd envy me. I try and succeed with everything in life, which means i'm normally quite busy. I want to look the best and I will try and do that even if it means not eating for a couple of days, or wearing a few extra layers of foundation. I want to be in the fashion industry so that's what you have to do. Beauty is pain.
6. Why do I want it?
Because I don't want people bitching about me. School is a bitchy place and it's only going to get worse in the real world. I want to be able to fit in and caring probably a little bit too much about my appearance is something that needs to be done for me to be able to fit in. You have to fit in to stand out.
7.Why do I want it now?
When else can I get it? I have a few more months left in this high school bubble. I've managed to conquer being a big fish in a little pond whilst at school, I need to prepare myself for life at uni. There's no point letting yourself go at this age.
8. What will happen if i dont get it now?
I will get it now. I'll work for anything I want. I'm an ambitious girl. One of the things that I can control is my weight and my looks to a certain extent, I can manage that. If I dont get into the fashion world, i'll try harder until I do. If I don't get accepted into what's classed as the social norm then i'll change myself, If I dont get noticed i'll change myself, I'm not bothered. I will do whatever it takes to fit in.
9.How will I get what I want, by doing what?
To get into the fashion industry you need to look right. So I just will do what ever that takes. I wont eat, i'll dye my hair, i'll buy new clothes. Anything. I just need to put myself out there, get talking to the right people. In that sort of industry it's not what you know, it's who you know... and often what you're willing to do with those people. I am driven, I just know it's not that simple to get what you want.
10. What must I overcome?
I guess I need to overcome myself. My fears. My worries about not being accepted.
Boy:
1. Who am i?
My name is Toby Wilson. I'm 18 years old and I live with both my mum and step dad. I go to sixth form and do my a-levels; Business, IT and Biology. I enjoy them, but could probably work a little harder. I'm not really sure what career I want. I know I want to go to uni to study business, but I haven't really thought about where that going to take me. I guess owning my own business would be nice. My mum and dad split up 3 years ago. But I still see dad when he's not too busy. Me and my step dad don't speak that much. Me and mum get on, but I think she worries about me and my school work. Apparently i'm clever; just lazy. I guess I see where she's coming from. I'm quite a sociable person. See my friends as often as I can. Would much rather be out than at home. I get so bored at home.
2. Where am i?
In my car, just outside my house, just trying to organise where all my mates are. I think a couple of them are picking up, so i'll drive to their house in a bit. I have a part time job in a local pub to pay for my car and stuff. I'd hate to rely on mum, I'd feel really guilty. I spend most of my time driving around, girls seem to like the fact i'm happy to drive everywhere which I guess is a bonus.
3. When is it?
Autumn 2012, about 9:30pm. Its a Thursday night. Have school tomorrow, so i'll try not to be out later than like mid night. It's really cold as well so I don't fancy staying at much longer anyway.
4. Where have i just come from?
I was at sixth form earlier, then went home. Had a girl over. She's not my girlfriend, I think she wants to be but I cannot be bothered with the whole relationship thing. There's not much point. She's nothing that special, probably about a 6 or a 7. She's a nice girl. I wont call her easy, just... keen. I tried to do abit of school work when she left. Did a bit of my IT. Should probably be doing a bit more right now, but I just couldn't be in the house much longer. I needed a fag anyway and I'd rather see the boys.
5. What do i want?
I dont know what I want. I want to be successful one day. I'm just not really sure how yet. Maybe I want to have a bit more focus and drive. I want to be someone that is naturally clever and never has to work for it. Half the time I slack because I don't want to start making the effort. I want my dad to notice, and try and help me out. It's hard not seeing him 24/7. But i'd never admit it because that makes me sound like a right melt.
6. Why do I want it?
Because I feel insignificant, I dont know what I want. Teachers dont seem to care about you if you're not an A* star student or if you're completely failing. The people in-between dont get a look in. Im just average. I just go with the flow. I do everything I do just to fit in with what's going on with my friends.
7. Why do I want it now?
I'm 18. Everything is about to begin in my life. If I get my grades for Uni, then that's what i'm doing next. I would like people to notice me a bit more. I want my dad to notice, and there's only a few more months for him to do that. I feel a bit like everything's happening incredibly quickly. Should probably get off my arse and work a bit harder.
8. What will happen if I don't get it now?
I'll feel like i've failed. I'll just have to sit around and get some dead-pan job, live at home with mum and her partner. Might retake if my a-levels are that bad.
9. How will I get what I want, by doing what?
I just need to get myself into gear. Stop smoking, stop going out every evening, stop seeing so many girls. I don't want a girlfriend, they take up to much time. I just need to focus on myself probably. Maybe take a bit of time talking to mum properly; perhaps even get to know my step dad a bit more. I think perhaps I should care. But whenever I care, something rubbish happens.
10. What must I overcome?
My fear to un-achieving. I know that if i dont work for something i'll do bad. I just dont want to do a load of work and then fail, it will just be embarrassing. I hate embarrassing myself, especially in front of my friends. I need to overcome my bravado I guess. Stop being so lazy and arrogant and sort myself out.
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